Last Semester Rants

This might be, if not, the most frustrating period of time in my entire life. I barely go out, but at the same time i think i'm being productive by doing so, which is not true. The thing is, i think i realized quite late that getting professional experiences during uni is so important. Applying for internships, joining paper presentation competition, applying conferences, those are the thing that i've seen my friends have been doing all these times. It's not that i didn't notice it, in fact i also applied, but conferences got postponed because of covid, so i'm still waiting, paper competition didn't go very well, i guess my writing sucks, i haven't got any call from my internship applications, though i think i applied more than 10 companies, and my exchange application didn't go quite as planned, since i have to retake a class and the faculty somehow decided not to give me the recommendation letter i asked them. Blaming others sure is a fun thing to do, despite the effort that we put, somehow it just didn't work. And of course "final thesis". I still don't know if i'm gonna be able to finish it on time, we'll see.

But beyond that, of course i need to point out that i might be the only one out of all my friends that still not ready for professional life. As far as i know, most of them have done at least one internship, some doing it while doing final thesis, some have already finished, some even just started the new one. Some even got accepted to the most prestigious consulting firm, which offer them fee that higher than my parents' salary. Some, minority of us, still waiting. Well in my case, working is actually my second option, but we all know applying to graduate school of one of the top university in Asia is not an easy job. 

But enough about my achievement-driven-friends, let's talk about highschool friends. Half of them have already graduated, since i started uni a year late. The thing is, we're not gonna talk about them, specifically about their job, or whether they have secured a job. So i happened to talk to one of my friends. She started worrying and wondering if she can start part timing while doing her final thesis, just like me. But her case is more about financial. But when i started to share my worries about the same thing, not only her, but people despise my thoughts since i go to a top uni. What people didn't realize is, without any prior experiences, people with liberal arts major like me would end up jobless for months, especially with the pandemic, jobs seem to run out. So, not only it seems my worries are somehow invalid, but the whole expectations that i got from everyone seem to burden me even more.

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